Over the past few years I have noticed that the confidence in myself has ebbed and swayed. Not just body confidence but overall confidence in myself.
I have had an amazing 12 months so I can’t say that is something that has come into play. We bought our beautiful house 14 months ago, recently got engaged and I learnt a lot about myself by leaving and then returning to my job. This doubt in myself has turned me from a very confident person to a overwhelmingly anxious human being.
I have always been a worrier for as long as I can remember, I’m the type of person who has to get everywhere at least 10 minutes early, just in case. Over the years I have noticed the worrying has slowly started to take over.
Whether it is confidence in my looks, the way I act or how other people perceive me, there is always that little something in the back of my mind that tells me I am not good enough. This is something that has massively increased since I have been a lot more social and using Instagram and Twitter a lot more.
A couple of weeks ago I posted a selfie on Instagram that I felt fantastic in but this caused 13 people to unfollow me, including 2 of which I thought were friends! A few months ago I would of gone and deleted that post because I would think that these people hated my face however I have realised I am stronger than I thought and I’m gaining that lost confidence back. I’ve decided I don’t give a shit about who didn’t like that photo as I did and still absolutely love it.
Alongside feeling happier with what I am posting online, and giving less of a shit about what other people think I have found myself taking more photos outside where people can actually see me.
When I first started blogging, I was so worried about what complete strangers would think whilst I stand and have a mini photoshoot to create new content. the last couple of times we have been out in public to take these photos I have found myself worrying less and ignoring the stares we have received!
I am not sure if this confidence is being expressed in my latest posts but it has caused a few companies to get in touch wanting me to review items or collaborate, including Tobi. These requests have given me that little push to try and post more and worry less.
I’m not sure where this confidence boost has come from?
Whether it is the fact I am growing as a person, the recent engagement or the weight I have recently lost something has clicked and I have began to feel a lot more comfortable in my own skin. I have started to get out of my comfort zone with my clothes again and tried more editorial makeup looks, which once I have nailed and managed to take decent photos of I will be posting them online!
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